So here we are, almost two months since my last post. Motherhood is clearly getting all of my time and energy right now. I don’t know how all those professional blogging moms do it. But in any case, I know that I need to get back at it because I tend to use this blog as a journal (slash recipe book), and I know that I need to get my thoughts and stories of parenthood out before I forget them. And I have some funny stories. But I will try to spread them out over a few posts…I don’t want to spoil the surprise too soon or make this post drag on. For now, this is what I have:
We celebrated the birth of our sweet Hadley on September 27, 2013, four days after my due date. I thankfully had an easy labor, probably around eight hours total from when it began at home to when we had Hadley at the hospital.
I wish I could find the words to describe what Craig and I felt when Hadley was born. Unfortunately, there are no words that I know that could possibly describe something so miraculous. If I ever come up with the words, I will let you know. But I know that I am not alone when I say that when, after all the anticipation, you finally get to see this baby that you have been waiting for, the love that comes over you is unbelievable. And you look at this little baby and think There is just no way something so perfect could be an accident or a coincidence or anything else. Only God could create something – someone – so amazing. I also remember thinking that it was so crazy how this sweet little 7lb 2oz baby was the size of a sesame seed when Craig and I found out about her. I mean, think about how incredible that is for a moment. It emphasizes in my mind that life definitely begins at conception, because that tiny little “sesame seed” was actually beautiful baby.
Becoming parents has been the most rewarding challenge Craig and I have ever faced. The highs and lows of emotions are changing constantly with the adjustment. Sleep deprivation can get pretty insane, and I doubt our condo will ever be really clean again (not that a spotless condo was a common occurrence before). There have definitely already been moments where I think I can’t handle this. But then, you look down at your precious baby, your gift from God, and the frustration and doubt and anxiety all go away, because, “Look at this perfect little baby. I couldn’t be happier.” And the first real smile…wow…it’s like God timed it for when he knows that parents are hitting their limit of the most overwhelmed they have ever felt, and all of a sudden your baby says, ” I love you so much, and I think you are the best parents in the world.”
So, yeah, parenthood is crazy. It can be crazy exciting and crazy overwhelming. It can be crazy frustrating and crazy amazing. And Craig and I have only been at it for less than two months! I know there is so much more to learn and experience as a parent, and I truly can’t wait!